A defining number as we speak….Can’t help but think that next year,I’ll be turning 3-0 (well,they say that 30 is the new 20 :-D). As one turns a year older,expect and anticipate anything ‘new’ to come into your life (unless you’re resistant to change).
It was a rollercoaster ride for me for the past year. I’ve had moments where,my will and patience was tested, people came and went out of my life, explored and discovered my strengths and capabilities, overcame some of my fears, dealt with drama of all sorts and best of all, my faith and beliefs that continuously mold and at times, discipline me to be a stronger person. I am not perfect, no one is and I embrace what life has to offer me, and from it all, I learn and continuously do so.
I learned/ realized that:
-As you grow older, you prefer having to spend time with a few,close people in your life, who stood with you all throughout the years. Their company alone uplifts your spirits and never fail to make you smile.
-With independence in my grasp, comes with much bigger responsibilities which at first,overwhelmed me, but as I took matters in astride, a sense of fulfillment encompasses my aura.
-Allow me to take this time to start anew with all of you. Forgiveness for my shortcomings and misgivings, Forgiveness I shall show in return as well. I have had my bouts of weakness..I am a work in progress. To those people who chose to stay in my life, Thank you. I will hold on to the comforting idea of having many more years to spend time, deal with and share my life with you. I am blessed because I am simply loved - A love that was not forced nor coerced, the kind of love that constantly reminds me I am not alone when I go through a phase in my life, a love that is effortlessly given without any prejudices. I have heard a few stories where when one has to feel loved, they have to fight tooth and nail just to desperately seek one’s attention, care and love. I am blessed because the love I feel is a love given freely and a love that is unconditional… I am not judged nor belittled. I am wholly accepted for who I am. For those who have left, I thank you as well as you have taught me to be brave and accept wholeheartedly and understand that things were not meant to be. There is no room in my heart for any grudges and bitterness.
Thank you all and I look forward to a better, breakthrough-filled year ;-)